Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
For many years I have asked God to heal me. Now you may be surprised at that, but when I was a young teenager we discovered that I had a twisted spine. The label the medical community puts on it is scoliosis... For the most part it never really hindered me from doing what I wanted. But, as time marches on, I have had to battle the effects of imbalanced muscles caused from the curve. I have been through seasons of migraines, muscle spasms and chronic pain and each time God has healed me ... but not when I wanted Him to.
I have examined this from many angles, but today I was listening to someone that I admire greatly and who has much to say about this subject of healing. Her name is Joni Eareckson Tada and she is a quadriplegic (she has a new audio-book that is being released and you can download the 1st hour of it free at https://christianaudio.com). Joni said something that surprised me, but that I can totally relate to. She quoted Psalm 37:4 and said that as much as she desires to be free from the wheelchair and the present pain, she has a greater desire to know God & to grow in Him. Joni is allowing God to work good in her despite (or is it, 'to spite') what the enemy has thrown her way.
My heart totally concurs. I started to recall all of the times that I went up for prayer, with absolute faith to be healed (and each time in response to God's prompting for me to do so, I might add). I have continually come away from each of those experiences with God answering a deeper need, a greater need every time. My back is still curved. He eventually healed me from the migraines & spasms. But again, my back is still curved.
My greatest quest in life is not to have a straight back, although I won't argue if it comes. My greatest quest is to know God's peace, to really trust Him, to have His mind, to be so intertwined with His presence that I am truly one with Him. My 2nd greatest desire would be to reflect & wear Him well to my family... and to you.
I'll stop here. If you are in a hard place, trust God to deliver you. If He does not alleviate your physical circumstances, trust Him. Do not let the enemy gain control of your mind & your spirit.
Ever wonder why Pharaoh told Moses to wait until tomorrow?
Look at what it says:
Moses said to Pharaoh, "I leave to you the honor of setting the time for me to pray ... to be rid of the frogs...
"Tomorrow," Pharaoh said.
What?! Apparently, the frogs were everywhere; in their beds, their kitchens, their hair... Well, God did say that they would go up on them :) Why would he be so ridiculous? Why wouldn't he have said, "Right now"?
Anyway, this word 'tomorrow' has been intriguing me lately. Maybe it's just me, but I find that I am either putting off what I should do today or thinking (worrying) too much about tomorrow. Sounding familiar anyone out there??
The thought occurred to me that maybe if I really learned how to do today, I'd be right where I am supposed to be... tomorrow.
Find peace today, my friend. Trust God with tomorrow. It'll be a today soon enough...
Here it is in full:
Moses said to Pharaoh, "I leave to you the honor of setting the time for me to pray for you and your officials and your people that you and your houses may be rid of the frogs, except for those that remain in the Nile." 10 "Tomorrow,"Pharaoh said.
Moses replied, "It will be as you say, so that you may know there is no one like the LORD our God. 11 The frogs will leave you and your houses, your officials and your people; they will remain only in the Nile."
I was reading Genesis 31-33 today and noticed something in Jacob that sounded
familiar to me!!
Take time to read through this story if you haven't done so in a while.
Jacob would often respond to God obediently, but his methods of response were frequently dictated by fear.
...before you read on I'd like to define the fear that I am referring to first.
I am not talking of the reverential fear/respect for God that we all need.
I am talking of a fear/worry/terror of what others think
or of what we imagine circumstances to bring us.
As I was reading along, it struck me... guilt produces fear! Does that seem right out of the blue? Think about it. Years earlier Jacob had run from his brother Esau because, well, Esau wanted to kill him. It was probably a good thing that he ran; but he ran with the guilt of why his brother wanted his life. Jacob had deceived him & essentially robbed everything from him. Jacob's actions didn't produce remorse, they produced fear and fear flees.
Now, in chapter 31, Jacob is faced with another relational issue, this time with Laban. The difference here is that this circumstance was probably not Jacob's fault. God tells Jacob to leave and go back to his homeland. Jacob obeys... but he obeys with fear operating. Instead of leaving with confidence in the care of God, he fears the worst reaction that Laban might possibly throw and tries to sneak away. It's funny to me how he thought he could do this without being noticed (all the flocks & herds & wives & kids :). Anyway, Laban asks Jacob why he did this and Jacob's response was this, "Because I was afraid, for I said, ‘Perhaps you would take your daughters from me by force.' " (Genesis 31:31)
Fear can sound quite noble. Fear tries to mimic wisdom.
BUT, there is a difference! Wisdom and fear cannot operate in peace together. Both are masters, and both will compete for control. Wisdom is sound and confident, daring and peaceful all at the same time. Fear is irrational and anxious and extremely short sited.
Here's the lesson I learned today from Jacob:
"I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better.." Ephesians 1:17
"But this man, after He had offered one sacrifice for sins forever, sat down..."
God is faithful and rewards those who cling to & follow in His ways. You will not only find rest by holding fast to the LORD, but you will find favour & wisdom.
Psalm 62:1 How quickly I forget to trust in God! When this happens all peace just goes out the window. BUT... when I remember and place my trust back where it belongs, my faith is renewed and my soul finds rest.
Please inquire for the word of the LORD today. 1 Kings 22:5